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my tiniber…

he en i are texting again…

and im hapi coz… of all the pain i gave him…

still there he was…

ready to be there for me…

hahai…
tnx tini ^^,

he also dedicated a song for me…

he said wen he en i meet, he’ll sing a song for me…

TELL ME YOUR NAME - JOSE MARI CHAN

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　Tell me your name you’re lovely
Please tell me your name
Just when I thought
This would be one of those boring games
You walked into these feelings
You looked at me and smiled
My heart unfroze and started going wild

Can you imagine this
The confusion of
first love’s kiss
A return to wondering
If the magic of love was this
You merely said hello
And my mind did a stop and go
Can it possibly be
The future for me is you

Tell me your name
I must know
Won’t you tell me your name
I’m not insane
Just frightened that you might go
Don’t go please stay beside me
Wait until I can tell you all my schemes
Chasing rainbows spinning dreams
Finding someone to love like you

I’m not insane
Just frightened that you might go
Don’t go please stay beside me
Wait until I can tell you all my schemes
Chasing rainbows spinning dreams
Tell me please your name
Tell me

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its a very nice song with a very meaningfull meaning…

i listen to it at our ktv…

i was really touched by that…

so i thot, wat song can i dedicate to him…

i just thot of only one song…

WHAT IF - NINA

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　I often wonder just how can it be
But everytime I think about it
Seems impossible to me
I wanna touch you, call out your name
Would you be my love, would you be my friend
Would you feel the same

What if wishes all came true
And each one had a star
That would keep it shining brightly
However near or far

What if a miracle appeared
And heaven was here for us to see
Oh what if you, were to fall in love with me

I imagine, a picture in my mind
You and me we’ll be together
Together for all time
Like in the fairytales
Where everything comes real
Would you take my hand, would you understand
Just how I feel…

It’s not impossible
It’s not impossible
It happens each day
People find each other
Fall in love with one another
It happens this way
It’s not impossible
It’s not impossible
I don’t believe
If I close my eyes
If I make a wish
You’d be loving me

What if wishes all came true…

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it’s really perfect for what i feel…

and it’s perfect on our situation… ^^,

im ready to move on and be happy again…

im sick and tired of crying and always being in pain…

dont i deserve to be happy and loved?

i hope i find the perfect perso for me…

hu will accept me for hu im not and not just hu he wants me to be…

loves the things and people i love…

and most of all…

respects me for i am a person hus SPECIAL…

last saturday was the most insulting night of my life….

i thot we agreed not 2 c each other for awhile…

not until wer both ready…

he called me and asked if i kud go fetch him…

that was very disturbing coz,

i thot he was at toril…

but then he told me to see him at matina crossing…

i was shocked coz he was there…

i thot he was home…

then he told me he’s not feeling well…

so i told him to go home and rest…

but he refused…

he said he just wanted to see me…

so i said ok i’ll go…

but i’ll just return him home…

coz my co-workers and i are going to some place called BONGUYAN…

den he started shouting…

he told me not to go but i already promised

and then he told me that it seems like they’re much more important to me than he is…

so i told him, “didnt we already agreed not to see each other?”

he told me not to go… but i insisted…

its just because i already promised to them…

he en i know taht some girls there are so called BITCHES…

he told me that if i go there, i’ll be just like them…

then i told him, “do u really think that im like that?”

he told me that he wishes that i wont feel the same ways he felt that time…

then i told him that, “dont u worry i already felt that long ago… coz that’s wat u always makes me feel!!!”

he told me he never knew that im always worried for him…

so i shouted with angfer that, “u never did because all that’s important to u was urself!!!”

so he got mad… then he started calling me a BURING, PUTA, and so on…

i was so shocked and angry,

that i said that he doesnt have the authority to say wat i must do…

because wer not together anymor…

he tried to call me many times but i didnt answer…

wats the use of answering the fon if the only thing he kept on saying was that,

im a bitch, slut, etc…

so he got really really angry…

he called again and told me,

(in bisaya translated into tagalog)

“cge magpakalasing kah, pagkatapos sumama ka sa sampung lalake ant magpa…TOOT…!!!”

then he got off the fon…

so i texted him and said,

(in bisaya translated into tagalog)

“sa tagal ng pagsasama ntin ganyan ba ang tingin mo sakin?!

alam mong ndi aq ganyang klcng babae!!!”

then he called angain and said,

(in bisaya translated into tagalog)

“magpakamatay ka nalng”

then he got off the fon again…

so i texted him again and said,

(in bisaya translated into tagalog)

“bakit naman aq magpapakamatay eh nag eenjoi paq sa buhay ko!!!”

then he replied and said

that i dont have a conscience cos,

he said while i was enjoying my night, out there he was, crying…

and that he’s really hurt…

i told him that that’s not half the pain i felt wen ever i think of u…

wenever u go out and doesnt tell me wer ur going…

u know its ur fault…

im not upto revenge…

its just that i also have a social life and my life doesnt revolve only on YOU!!!

tips on how do u get rid of the person u love…

white horse

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just awhile ago…

i desyded to get rid of the person i luvd d most…

it was so hard, heartbreaking and painful for me…

the only way to get rid of the person u luv is to hurt them…

just like wat i did…

dis past few weeks, he’s been visiting at our house…

like there’s no problem between us at all…

we broke up long before…

but he was courting me again…

because, he said, he luvs me so much and he already misses me alot…

but i know, even tho we luvd each other so much,

there are things that wont work out for us…

so i desyded to myself not to get back wid him… i didnt tell him…

u know y?

because i like it wen he’s near… i love it wen he’s wid me…

but it also hurts me alot…

because i know for myself that i cant accept him back…

he told me that before he was afraid…

because maybe God gave me to him to be his KARMA…

he cried infront of me, begging for forgivenes…

i told him that i already forgave him… and i did!!!

but it’s too late…

i want him but i dont…

i dont understand…

its confusing… for my mind and heart…

but i made my descision…

i lied to him…

i told him that i just had a boyfriend…

even tho i dont…

i just told himthat just to hurt him and just to give up…

coz if i dont, he’ll still force himself…

then nhe said “thank you”

i cried… alot…

coz i know i luv him so much but we cant be together again…

i told him that i never regreted that i had him…

and i also told him that i love him so much and still cared for him…

so much…

its so hard for me to do that… because i luv him so much…

i acceptd hu he was… forgave him many many times… and still luvd him…

this time… we must move on… there’s no turning back…

wats done is done…

even if we cry rivers of tears, we cannot take back the descisions we made…

especially ME…

we’ll be happy… someday…

i know… i wish…

bye… honii…

Even now
When there’s someone else who cares
When there’s someone home whos waiting just for me
Even now I think about you as I’m climbing up the stairs
And I wonder what to do so he wont see
That even now
When I know it wasn’t right
And I found a better life than what we had
Even now I wakeup crying in the middle of the night
And I can’t believe it still could hurt so bad

[Chorus:]
Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it’s still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And how I wish you knew
Even now

Even now
When I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you been gone
Even now I still remember and the feelings still the same
And the pain inside of me goes on and on
Even now

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it’s still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And God I wish you knew
Some how
Even now
Even now

huhuhuhuhuhu

malas ba ko sa pag ibig?!

xiet sakit2 tlga huhuhuhu

d q maexpress ang feelings ko..

parang gusto kong mag pakamatay… mag lasing!!! magwala!!!

but i know its not the answer…

it just feels so unfair…

coz i luvd dem…

but still… i get hurt… (T.T)